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Name: Matthew
Country: United States
State: Kansas
Metro: Dodge City
Birthday: 8/13/1987
Gender: Male


Interests: Pritty much everything and anything.
Expertise: Well can't really say i'm an expert at anything but I pick stuff up pritty easy.
Occupation: Profesional Fuck up


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Member Since: 10/27/2004

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Saturday, September 20, 2008

It's been such a long time.....

How do you know that you are walking into something with both eyes open?
or and open mind?

Most the time you don't see or think about the right thing till its over

If you do, how do you stay that way?

Anything that you do can get repetitious or you can become jaded and lose touch.

I feel like i'm being quarted by horses but the knots on my arms and legs are loose
I can easily just get out of any one of them
But stangely enough i know i won't be about to get out of them all
what will it cost?

I think i just need to relax
without everyone there all the time.

Like when i colored that picture
look how pretty that turned out

I think i just need some time by myself
to get all this stress i've been holding back out of my system
I hate to say it but i guess what it really comes down to is.....

.....i need some time to think about everything
get this head of mine thats trying not to miss a beat some rest for a day

heh  now to add getting a real day off on my list


Friday, June 27, 2008

Over and over in my head at night....

I wrote this at work a while ago and thought i should put it on here because that was the intent...

A million thoughts rush my mind but i can't seem to settle on one.
Do you really wanna do this?
this isn't what you had in mind.
How certain are you?
But i plug my ears and try to ignore my own questions, not exactly the best solution :)

I guess in the sum of it I just want to be a normal person,
which is very hypocritical of me because i allways try and see better things in people and myself and to do those better things you can't do "normal" things or be a "normal" person
Bet thats kind of confusing to read

I guess i just need something constructive to do
A house
A picture
A project
something....
All that costs money and time that i don't think i have.

"I don't think" is the key because i actually might but like my mind
i can't settle for one

A long time ago i said i finally felt like i was walking again instead of crawling....
I just don't know which direction to go now

Matt......................


Friday, May 16, 2008

A Note Tied To A Pidgen In A Bottle....

Call me peter
i might forget again today
its been far to long
my poor comunication and memory skills are only as good as the sharpie marker used for the task
and the only time i walk is about the time of this post
i sense we both need to steal some words

p.s. A way has been found into the Trinity, more suvanears than you can think of next time your here

Matt.............................


Sunday, April 27, 2008

Currently Listening
Remains
By Alkaline Trio
If you had a bad time
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THese thoughts are stale, i've been revolving like turnstyles....

Sometimes I think about when you asked me what was wrong all those years ago....
I wonder if you knew what it was when all you did was look at me and then wrap your arms around me and just stayed there like that.....
I wonder if you knew how much that meant........
I wonder if you herd me say i was sorry......

Reassurance is sometimes critically vital yet overlooked most of all

When should you worry about a bad feeling?
Is it after your heart races faster than normal?
Is it after it wakes you up in the middle of the night?
Is it after you forget to breath every time you think about it?
or after you confront the bad feeling and its still the only thing on my mind?
I don't know if this is a bad feeling anymore or knowing something is wrong

In any situation of conflict the human mind has the function of fight or flight.
You eather get ready to run or ready to fight it till you win....
what is the outcome if you choose neither?

First you went crazy
Then I could read your mind
Then you wanted to run away
Now your to scared to speak.....

"Have my words lost all weight...
this is weighing on me....."

Matt...................................


Thursday, March 20, 2008

Currently Listening
So Wrong, It's Right
By All Time Low
Remembering Sunday
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If there is one thing i learned, its that you don't feel the heat till you get burned...

Head in the clouds
feet on the ground

i wish i didn't have blue eyes
bright and shining with hope?
cold and blue and lifeless?

I was asked if i believe in karma yesterday
of course i do
if you are a good person and continue to do so you will be happy
if you embrace jealousy, anger, selfishness, and such you will get them all in return
reep what you sow right.....
i donno now

it just hurts a lot when you hurt people you are close to
because people like me more than them
that sounds incredibly vane
but its becoming more relevant

i don't know if being myself is a good thing
even if its not my fault its still bothers me
because it affects other people

I need lessons in letting go

Matt.............................................




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